Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Today was a super duple BAD day.
I practically screwed up my Physics SPA and my Chemistry Practical Exam, titration (counted in CA1 of 2008). My Physics SPA was major screwed up! Bob with one line enough already what, why must got two!?!?! I don't really understand the instruction and the procedure. How dumb can one get? It's in 'CM', yet I didn't change it to 'M'!!! No wonder the gradient also so weird. And Mr Ong came to me and asked me, "Are you sure this is 55cm?" Gahh. I'm gonna FAIL my SPA! How great can this be? 20% of 'O' levels. I still want to score well for my Physics! Argh.When Mr Ong came and asked me, I was like, "Oh my god, that's it!" My hand continued to tremble, my heart beats twice as fast. Gone case! My mind went blank. Gosh, I don't know what to do, everything's just in a mess. After the experiment, the class was filled with shoutings. I supposed most of us was depressed, all our moods went down into the drain, and perhaps with some tears too?Chemistry Practical Exam also very good. This time counted for CA1, my results aren't accurate. The previous trials are accurate! There goes my accuracy marks! One BIG ZERO there for me! There's still one more practical exam next monday, also counted in CA1. I better do well. *cross-fingers*I can't remember what's for yesterday. Well, I guess nothing much.'O' levels Mother Tongue Paper 1 and 2 is finally here. Tomorrow is the day and all the best to the other candidates. Thank you people for all your encouragements and well wishes. It's very much appreciated. A distinction please? I certainly hope so. We'll be missing in action from 8am to12pm. There's still lessons after that. How great. Alright, off to study for those formats. Bye.
signing off with passion @ {10/30/2007 08:45:00 PM}
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Hello peeps.I was trying to do my A-maths assignment today, but I just couldn't find the way to start off. I don't know which theorem to use, I don't know how to apply the theorem, I don't know how to prove that identity. Gahh, I'm in a total mess.Yesterday night, I was having dinner outside with my parents. I've this sudden thought. I just missed those times when my parents treat me like a little girl, hushing me with those words of comfort, being able to run into their embrace, a little hug and a smile will make my day.It has just disappeared.I want those times back. I don't want just a "Have you had your dinner?", "Got any tests?", "Homework do already a not?" or "Don't stay up too late, sleep early." It's just a normal routine of sentences that I will hear every single day. I don't want! I want back those words of comfort, those hugs and smiles. And not naggings or scoldings, although it's inevitable, I just need some words of comfort from them and not "Your results not very good ah, not up to expectation and stuffs like that." They are not very satisfied with my results, but you think I would? I was down, yet I still received these kind of remarks. You think I feel good having this kind of results? You think I feel proud getting this kind of results? Words of comfort? I heard none. Argh.Not that I'm jealous over the little ones, but I still do need their words of comfort and support at a certain point in time.In the car yesterday, I was telling them that I would better do well for my paper this coming Wednesday, if not I'm gonna be dead. My mum was then telling me don't look down on yourself, must believe in yourself, nobody looking down on you and stuffs like that. Then what for must she ask for other people's marks and compare with mine?!?! It just makes no sense.Whatever it is, I'm just tired of it.Typical school day tomorrow, with Biology Extra Class after school. Physics SPA in two days time. All the best 3/8! (:Bye.
signing off with passion @ {10/28/2007 07:16:00 PM}
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Today was fine. Biology extra class was cancelled as there's no keys to the classroom. Went out with my girls to get some stuffs. I got myself a 2008 planner, that shall be my companion throughout the whole of next year. (: Files too, I'm gonna do mass filing soon. Presents!! I scare _____ out. HAHAHA! Only she and me knows. But from far, I really thought it's her.SPAs are just around the corner. Next week, there's Physics SPA and Chemistry Practical Test which would be included in the CA1 of 2008. 'O' level Mother Tongue Paper is just on Wednesday, I better score well, if not, I'm gonna be so so dead. The following week will be Biology SPA and Chemistry SPA, followed by a series of extra lessons. I'm worried for SPA. Okay, I just made a redundant remark. Who wouldn't be worried right? Yesterday's trip to museum was fine. Those galleries were pretty interesting. Photos will be uploaded, as soon as I've received them.Next about results, devastated was how I felt, disheartening is the word to use. Gahhh. Being promoted with such a lousy score. Although I improved by just a few marks, mum was like... Okay, if I was the mother, I think I would give the same reaction. I was down, all the fake smiles that I've tried to put on, it's just so difficult. Tears were at the verge of my eyes, who knows about it? I was disappointed, I was upset, I cried. Yes, I asked people to cheer up, asked them to think positive, asked them to face reality, but I just couldn't do it myself. I know I'm such a failure alright. But at the same time, with this sucky results, it's a motivation for to me to work even harder and strive for the better. I promise I will get this over soon and get on with work. I will and I can.It's always easy to ask people to be contented, but you are always not the one doing so. It's always easy telling people to face reality, to think positive, yet you are still not the one doing so. How true can these be? Perhaps, we can never understand.Receiving that report slip simply means that it marks the end of a Sec 3 year. Bid goodbye, and we shall go one step further on to Sec 4, where the nightmare begins to haunt us down. It's just a crucial year where most of the students have to go through in our lives. This is just the start of our journey.Alright, that's for now. Off to do some work. Bye.
signing off with passion @ {10/27/2007 06:22:00 PM}
Thursday, October 25, 2007
I'm finally back to date. Haha.Some dedications? I don't know.Celestine: You are superwoman's friend, therefore you cannot be defeated so easily alright. Believe in yourself, you can do it, I'm sure you can. Pick up from where you fall and face reality. You must still carry on with life, isn't it? If there's a will, there's always a way. Continue to aim high and reach out for the skies. 3/8'08 is a no problem to you. You can overcome this hurdle. Don't worry too much now okay, and don't think that you can't do it. Be positive, and don't forget that your motivational meal is still waiting for you ya. "努力不一定会成功, 但不努力就一定不会成功" 你一定不能放弃, 要加油哦! I'm still awaiting to seeing you shine alright. (:Clarice; Ah niang: Don't worry too much okay, you will be fine. I know you are scared of facing the outcome, but if you don't go for check up, you will never know the outcome and you will be there worrying. Who knows you might just be fine? I know it's difficult and scary to go for check up, if I were you, I would also be scared. But afterall, it's still your health, you decide for yourself. We won't force you alright. And don't think too much!Past few days were fine with step-up programme. Having tuition for my niece was disastrous, I was like a mad woman shouting like nobody's business. Teach her = Weaken my heart. Think might have high blood pressure? Haha.Tomorrow's reporting time for school is like 2.15pm. We are going on an excursion and the teachers are holding back our report books until we are back from the trip which is like 6 plus? Anyway, my results won't be good. Sighs.Whatever it is, I really think my hormones are going crazy. I think I'm being too sensitive. Gahhh.Alright, till then lovelies. Bye.
signing off with passion @ {10/25/2007 09:28:00 PM}
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Oh well peeps, I just realised I haven't update for quite sometime.I wanna thank all those who have encouraged me and showed me their concern. I appreciate it very much. Thanks loads peeps, you know who you are. (:I will be fine soon alright. I just need some time to get over this. I promise that I will cheer up okay.Today was just tutoring my niece who is just like in Primary 3. It was not an easy task though. Their syallbus was so much different from ours. Gahhh. And my cousin says she wanna hire me as her tutor!?!?! I will consider about it. But as for now, I will help her for the time being until her End of Year Examination is over. (:I still have my higher mother tongue homework! My 大纲 and 提纲!Yesterday went to the pasar malam with my girls.Friday had higher mother tongue lesson. Did the May 'O' level Mother Tongue Paper. It isn't very easy. We also did the editing for the DV Campus. I think it's not bad done. Something funny happened.Thursday had lesson till 3.15pm. Even though the last period was Maths and when Mr Dennis Teo wasn't in school, we still had to wait until 3.15pm. We are not allowed to leave school early.Tomorrow's the start of step-up programme, which is like normal lessons. No more post-exam activities, but normal lessons. It's time to start work again! It's time to start preparing for 'O' levels already.And it's the start of 'O' levels tomorrow. All the best to my Sec 4 seniors! Jiayou!There's still tuition for my niece tomorrow. I better get myself prepared.Till then lovelies. Bye.
signing off with passion @ {10/21/2007 09:52:00 PM}
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Today was a little better? I certainly hope so.Well, I passed my Biology. And credits to Ms Chan. I owe her a big thank you too. Things have not been going too well for me lately. It's depressing receiving these kind of results. I know it's my fault. I can't blame anyone else.I know what's over is over. I have to pick up from where I fall. However I'm clueless, I don't know how to pick up from my fall once again. I really don't know how to. My heart feels like as if it's sinking. No pain, no gain. You reap what you sow. Are all these quotes true or only to a certain extent? Mum wasn't satisfied with my results, neither was I. I just feel so... I don't know what to do. I can't do anything either. 'O' levels in a years' time, I want my distinctions. I'm gonna work super hard during the holidays, but one month has been taken away for those extra lessons.Thank god for those holistic reports we have. That had certainly helped to pull our grades up. (:Higher Mother Tongue lessons starting from Friday, all the way till the end of next week. Next Friday, DOOMSDAY! Collection of report books, I better have some improvements, if not, I'm gonna be so so dead.Last paper that we are going to receive tomorrow. Social Studies. Last heart attack, before the collection of report books. I've done what I could. I've tried my best to help you two. I've talked to you guys. The rest is up to you.Alright, till then lovelies. Bye.
signing off with passion @ {10/17/2007 08:36:00 PM}
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Today was simply DISASTROUS!One word to describe DEAD. BIOSTRYSICS = NO HOPE.
ME = HALF-DEAD.Thank god, I passed my English and my E-Maths. Mr Dennis Teo is really nice man. I owe him a big thank you. (:
There are few more heart attacks to come, before I'm dead.
Biology paper; I better pass. If not really no hope already.
By the way, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINGYING! May all your wishes come true. :DDHang for hope?
That's for now. Bye peeps.
signing off with passion @ {10/16/2007 07:48:00 PM}
Saturday, October 13, 2007
I have no mood to post, so I guess it'll just be a short post.If I were to receive depressing results, that's bound to be, who can I blame? Nobody, but only myself. Who ask myself to be so last minute? Nobody, it's again myself. I'm to be responsible of my own actions. No point crying over spilt milk. Whatever results I'm going to receive, it just shows how much effort I've put in. I'm sure that it's never enough.Well, I shan't talk about my papers anymore, cause they are just all screwed up. Results will be back on Tuesday and I guess it will be devastating, shouldn't be guess, I suppose it's confirm devastating.Not that I don't have faith in myself, but I know it's really a gone case.Bowling is loved. Today went SAFRA with the usual peeps, and do the usual thing! Opps. Played one game only because the lanes are booked. Well, went to TM after that and had LJS then home sweet home. (:Yesterday a day out.Tomorrow there's prayers. One year had past, that's so fast, isn't it? I supposed I will go help out at the shop after prayers. Alright, till then lovelies. Bye.
signing off with passion @ {10/13/2007 06:50:00 PM}
Saturday, October 06, 2007
Oh well peeps,MAJOR SCREWED UP! That's what I can say. I'm so so dead. I practically screwed up all my papers.But thank god, I managed to pass Geography and Chemistry Paper 1. My E-maths Paper 1, it's so screwed up. I supposed my Paper 2 won't do any better. That's it. Chemistry Paper 2 screwed up too, Social Studies essay question 4b is a total screwed up. Why can't the exams be over? ):There's still 6 more papers to go. And I know I must press on! (:Major papers are still on next week. Physics, A-maths and Biology. SPA for all 3 subjects are around the corner (November period?) + my 'O' levels Chinese Paper on 311007. God, please let me get all these over soon! I am looking forward to all the chalets. The 2/9 one! I missed the previous one, and I will not have any repeats of the past. I will definitely go for the one this time round. :DD I suppose the 3/8 one would be as nice. :DDI want to go on a holiday! Taiwan, Shanghai or anywhere. I just wanna go aboard for a breather.My leg's still not healed! Argh. I went to the Chinese physician today. He asked me where it hurts, I told him. He pressed and grabbed my leg up and twist it. Not once, but twice. Oh my god, I tell you it's so painful, until my tears almost shot out.Had a sumptuous lunch. (:Went to the temple and home sweet home after that.Oh ya, went to MJ's open house yesterday. I think their school's so cool with those facilities and CCAs. They are building some games convention room? Their library's so cool. They can actually watch movies or rent the discs home to watch. Isn't it so great? And they are so united. I would love to be in that school. But JC or Poly? I'm in for both. Hmm.. which one to go for? One more year to go, and I shall bid goodbye to Coral. Jiaqi asked me a question yesterday, "Don't you feel like crying?" I asked her, "Why?" She told me, "Don't you think it's so fast? We are leaving Coral very soon." Yup, I agree with this. I guess I'll miss everyone there eventually when I leave.
I have heard many things, and I know what's going on. I don't know what to do. But I got this as a conclusion. Human relationships are complicating and nobody can be trusted except for yourself. Does that satisfy you? I don't wanna hear any more things. I just want to concentrate on my studies now. Stop all these comments or remarks will you? I don't wish to hear any more stuffs for the time being. If you want to say anything, wait for it after the exams, and I will entertain you. I don't have the time and energy now to listen to all these stuffs. If you are embarrassed to face me, why must you do that in the first place? I don't demand an apology from you, but if you want to apologise, I wouldn't mind either. Thank you.* No assumptions please, it kills. And if you know, just keep it to yourself. But if you don't know, I would appreciate if you don't ask. Thank you. All the best to all for your upcoming papers. Remember this: Fear brings nothing but pressure; Confidence will bring the knowledge you will need. Alright, I guess that's about it. Once exams are over, you will hear from me again. Till then lovelies. Bye.
signing off with passion @ {10/06/2007 08:06:00 PM}
Monday, October 01, 2007
English and Social Studies.MAJOR SCREWED UP.
signing off with passion @ {10/01/2007 05:13:00 PM}
