Wednesday, May 16, 2007
today was much more worser than ystd! i swear, it really was. first ppr returned in the morning. bio. the marks were rather unexpected. i thot i could do much more better than that? it was such a letdown. it's like i kinda start my revision so early, even though it was the last ppr. and it's like i started on it first lor. i even did notes. and this was wad i gt? i was told that it was all over. dont feel so sad. dont feel discouraged and etc. thanks ppl. bt it's like i felt so... i cant describe that feeling out. it was such a disappointment. seriously, it was. i felt so useless out of a sudden. my results were so damm terrible. my geog was like... i'm so down after receiving those results. it dampened my spirit. i teared, i cried. what else can i do? it's all gone. first time in my life that my results were so damm terrible and horrible. those feelings just sucked. my A1s; my distinctions, would they still be there? my top 10 position in class, can i still sustain there? how about my top 20 in lvl position? i guess i hardly have any chance. sighs.what i always wished for was just to have my results well. i dont want to disappoint anyone, and that includes my parents, teachers and definitely myself. they had pinned high hopes on me, i cant let them down. bt this time round, i failed to do so. i'm truely sorry. this wasnt what i wanted and wished for. i'm really sorry. it wasnt up to your expectations, neither it was up to mine. my shattered dreams... my only hope... all perished! hais. would i just be gone like that? i definitely hope nt. bt that's just the cruel fact. the fact that i need to face. the consequences...i just hope that someone would be there for me? lend me their shoulders? lend me their ears? i'm really upset. it was unpleasant. i feel like crying again. it's nt that i'm a cry baby or what? bt it's really saddening. the tension is still around. and i'm sorry to say that i lost my confidence. how i wish all these were just an illusion? hw nice would it be...anyw, shall stop here for nw. bye ppl.
signing off with passion @ {5/16/2007 05:30:00 PM}
