Thursday, August 23, 2007
I just feel like crying. Don't ask me why because I also do not know why. Today wasn't fun at all. Perhaps to the rest, YES, but definitely not to me.We went to the matrix building somewhere near Biopolis street. The talks were fine, but honestly, I didn't know what they are talking about. Mr Ong is also very cute. His main purpose of going there was to eat the buffet? Although 3/8 is very cute too, we had a mini picnic on the bus to and fro the journey, jokes were cracked, filled with laughters. I just felt like a nuisance? I don't know. I think I'm getting more useless as days pass by.Choosing to be in 3/8 isn't bad at all. the people there are nice. However, the STRESS level is killing!Perhaps, counselling or rather consoling people aren't my forte. But, I seriously hope that you guys are fine.I know the feeling of being left out is terrible. But, you do have friends, you have us. Honestly, you aren't a fool. You are NOT, so please don't say that. I know by saying all these might not be of use to you, but the purpose of this is to let you know that you aren't a fool. You are a smart girl, you should understand what I mean. Last but not least, just want to let you know that you are something. You are someone we treasure, you are always the girl there for us.I know the taste of failure isn't good. Who wants to fail? That feeling really sucked alright. My results are deproving. What does that mean? Perhaps, i didn't put in enough effort? I really don't know what to do. People always say that FAILURE IS THE KEY TO SUCCESS. But I just see no light, my hope and faith are fading as time passes by.My confidence! Where is it? I can't find it anymore. Those failures really made me lost my confidence. Not once, not twice, it's time and again. Was told not to give up until the end of the year. Maybe I really cannot take it anymore? I don't know.Seeing the ones around me getting upset over their results, the feeling really isn't good. I'm feeling the same way too, it's just that I don't want to show it out. It's difficult to walk out of it, it's never easy walking out of failure. It hurts, I know. The pain is just like losing someone you dear. I think this time round, no more A1s. And this feeling will really suck. Yesterday was fine? Went for excursion to the blood bank. It was interesting. And we made Ms Chan angry. Sorry. Whatever it is, I hate my life now, I hate failing.By the way, some good news. BIOSTRYSICS'S SPA are ALL being postponed! :DD That's about it. Bye peeps.
signing off with passion @ {8/23/2007 09:39:00 PM}
