Sunday, October 28, 2007
Hello peeps.I was trying to do my A-maths assignment today, but I just couldn't find the way to start off. I don't know which theorem to use, I don't know how to apply the theorem, I don't know how to prove that identity. Gahh, I'm in a total mess.Yesterday night, I was having dinner outside with my parents. I've this sudden thought. I just missed those times when my parents treat me like a little girl, hushing me with those words of comfort, being able to run into their embrace, a little hug and a smile will make my day.It has just disappeared.I want those times back. I don't want just a "Have you had your dinner?", "Got any tests?", "Homework do already a not?" or "Don't stay up too late, sleep early." It's just a normal routine of sentences that I will hear every single day. I don't want! I want back those words of comfort, those hugs and smiles. And not naggings or scoldings, although it's inevitable, I just need some words of comfort from them and not "Your results not very good ah, not up to expectation and stuffs like that." They are not very satisfied with my results, but you think I would? I was down, yet I still received these kind of remarks. You think I feel good having this kind of results? You think I feel proud getting this kind of results? Words of comfort? I heard none. Argh.Not that I'm jealous over the little ones, but I still do need their words of comfort and support at a certain point in time.In the car yesterday, I was telling them that I would better do well for my paper this coming Wednesday, if not I'm gonna be dead. My mum was then telling me don't look down on yourself, must believe in yourself, nobody looking down on you and stuffs like that. Then what for must she ask for other people's marks and compare with mine?!?! It just makes no sense.Whatever it is, I'm just tired of it.Typical school day tomorrow, with Biology Extra Class after school. Physics SPA in two days time. All the best 3/8! (:Bye.
signing off with passion @ {10/28/2007 07:16:00 PM}
