Friday, October 30, 2009
What should I do?I just feel hurt when I hear you cannot make it. I know how disappointed they are but that doesn't mean that I'm not. Although I've said that I'm prepared for retention but that doesn't mean I do not feel anything. I'm just trying to stay calm but do you know how sucky this is? Thinking that you won't be able to promote with your classmates, you won't be able to attend lectures and tutorials with them anymore, you won't be able to attend prom with them. Do you know how terribly I feel? I do not have a choice, I just can't make it. Who wants to retain when they can be promoted? Although there may be some exceptions.I want to try again but I'm afraid of the outcome. I'm afraid to disappoint them once again, I don't want to give them false hopes. Although daddy may seem like he's alright, he said that it's okay, but I know I've disappoint him. They told me to consider carefully, I am trying to. But I really do not know what to do. It seems that I'm in a maze, I'm lost inside. I know I've to be independent, I've to learn how to walk out myself. I know I've got to pick up from where I fall no matter how hard it is going to be, this is not the end. I still have got a long way to go.Is Poly really a better choice?Cry myself to sleep?
signing off with passion @ {10/30/2009 12:07:00 AM}
